Another day....

Ok, so it's 3:45 PM and I'm still wearing PJs. The ones I was wearing last night, yes.

And I'm pissed off. Chris has cancelled and is behaving very coldly. Kieran also drunkenly confessed. Not my ex, a different Kieran. Now both he and Ian are embarressedly ignoring me.

Ah, sometimes you've just got to laugh at people. Their natural impulses are so lame. But as both dual animal and spirit, how are we supposed to get rid of the base element without denying our own true nature?

Bottom line is, we're meant to be flawed.

So where's the humour in that? I guess it exists only in my need to pass off hurt and "walk it off", so to speak.

My plans for today? Having spent the entire morning online, I now intend to do something with my life and...sing all afternoon. My voice has been sounding a little harsh lately and I'm a bit worried about it - I haven't had a chance to sing a lot this last week, what with college starting and work and German worries consuming my life.

O_o

I should really try to write something, but writer's block is still reigning supreme. Oh, yay. lol. Or I could watch that DVD I got on Tuesday, "Blood and Chocolate" - it looks like the most amazing crap ever, but I liked the title. And since "Ginger Snaps", if it's got females, and werewolves, then....I gotta see it.

My life is really dragging on. Day after pointless day. No love. No friends. No nothing.

I'm not really feeling that bad, though - I've got over that stage. And being muleishly determined to BE HAPPY does count for something.

I miss Maria. I can't wait for the day when we'll be together. One day, I will make all (or at least the vast majority of) my dreams come true.

I am determined.